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Titan came over for the last time before he flies away today! Of course we're not going to lose contact, I hope. But this is a new chapter. He'll find new friends over there. He's not that hard to get along with. If not, a little too gullible.

Our friendship didn't start out strong. In fact, we didn't even start at a neutral. we started at a negative. I'm known to pick fight with anyone and everyone, and that was certainly true all those many years ago. I'm just an asshole. But I sort of slipped myself into the friend group some time or another, and for a while he didn't like me that much, and neither did I like him that much. But as the rest of the friend group slowly left, it eventually became just the two of us. So naturally, he starts to get used to me being me. and I have to thank him for that because otherwise this would've never taken off. I did not change myself that much. barely enough, anyway. definitely too little and still in the selfish category. But I honestly don't regret that. I cannot imagine me being all sensitive and stuff,ugh. I've got him as my one man PR team for a reason.

I haven't really given this much thought in the past. I''m not really a reflective person. I tend to look forward to the future (which isn't always a good thing, by the way. you tend to become an overthinker.. or at least I am).

But now that I am, I realised that we've done a lot of stuff together over the years. We wrote a book together a few years ago, with Thawin F/Tim. as well, before he left. Though, Titan didn't really quite help much in that book, he was still somewhat a part of it. Moreover, the book that I was writing, and he offered to take over and write, is hopefully going to be done in the next lifetime or so. I took about a year to write my first book. He's taken four years now and only on chapter five. I don't expect him to write it anymore because he's going to be busy in university and then afterwards life hits you in the face with absolutely no fucking manners, so I don't mind. The three versions of the five chapters he's written is better than a lot of published books, so I have old copies to read every now and again and think of old times. fun!

I also think back to our daily walks during breaks. How the hell did we have stuff to talk about everyday for six years? I still wonder. I can't really remember what we talked about except for some canned inside jokes that just keep giving. Those are still funny. But I still find it astonishing. Most people play sports or hang around and talk in friend groups... lots of contributers to the conversation. We were the two. Damn, time flies.

Now and again, I'm going to think back to all the jokes we've made over the years. I'd write them down here but holy hell will most everyone I knew get offended. so those are just for us. Best of luck in Christchurch. see you again soon :)